[rikaki]

When did I become such a stranger to myself?

I look back on the day and I don't recognize my actions as mine. It's like I'm loosing control of myself. I don't understand what is happening around me. I'm not being me... I don't know what I am. But this feeling is foreign to me, I don't know how to escape it. I was sitting there, looking up and wondering what I have come to. I look around and see useless stores that provide me with nothing at all. My inspiration was gone, and I put my head down in shame. No, nothing is wrong. I'm just scared of what this has brought me to. I can't carry on a normal conversation. I was just... pathetic.



That's a word you hear a lot with me. I mean I see that I can do it. Hell I can do whatever I please, I'm capable. But somehow I can't bring myself to see the truth.

D-E-M-O-L-I-T-I-O-N.

Comments

[ех.флудерша]

pathetic is a pathetic word.

let's expand our vocabulary together.

)

[rikaki]

forlorn?

or maybe plaintive?

[nataly0]

i like forlorn